But once we started shooting, something very unexpected happened to me.
Well, two unexpected things.
The first was Ryan Hansen who played Dick Casablanca's, his hair.
It was the exact, almost too accurate to one point shade of surfer bond blonde boy.
It was like the kind that gives you PTSD from walking along.
Then a speech that you're just like, whoa.
It was terrifying, and I loved it.
The second was that despite the recognition of my dream, I wasn't happy like at all.
My arrogant little ass whole brain could not comprehend what was happening.
I was like, how was this possible? This is what I wanted and what I needed, right? And yet I had it all, and I was lonelier than I had ever been.